...more or less.We're due a week from today, and I'm not getting any smaller that's for sure. My belly is so tight, and it is getting less and less comfortable. Rory and I were at Cub the other night and he picked up a pumpkin. I asked that he kindly shove it under his shirt for the rest of the shopping trip just to see what it is like to have such a heavy load. He set the pumpkin down, smiled and me and told me that I am doing a great job carrying our child.
Sleep and I used to be really good friends. I remember the days when my head would hit the pillow and sleep would welcome me immediately into a deep rest. But not so, lately. I get completely out of bed about every hour just to stretch my belly and let everything settle back into place. Rory is also sleeping horribly, and we are in awe of how accurate everyone's words were that this stage is just preparation for the sleepless nights that are to come.
I am nesting in the deepest sense of the word. The past few days I have been digging out every single box we own and going through each item with not a whole lot of sentiment attached. Nothing is safe. It feels good to deep clean like this though, and thanks to my mom and my helpful husband who are carrying my loads away, I think I'll finish the basement before this baby comes.
Still amazes me that this baby could come in two days or in two weeks. I can't think of any bigger life event that is wrapped in so much mystery!
And finally, speaking of mystery, at our last doctor's appointment he asked us if we had any questions. I didn't but I commented on how I still can't get over the miracle that is happening inside of me, and how hands-off this whole process of creating a life has been. He said, "Not to get all spiritual on you or anything..." And Rory interjected, "Oh, please do." And then he did. He told us miracle after miracle of the timing of birth. How right now there is a shunt blocking the blood from flowing to my baby's lungs because it's not necessary yet. But moments after my baby is born, that shunt will close up, flow through the vein and in an instant there will be blood pumping to baby's lungs. He smiled and said, "Now you go find a group of engineers who can duplicate that."
He went on and on. The three of us were just excitedly chatting about this miracle of life and it felt so right to celebrate like that with our doctor. It was cool to see him still get so excited about something he has been practicing for decades now. The thing is, the wonder and mystery of life just never gets old. It is pure gift and by far the greatest gift we have ever been given.
Sleep and I used to be really good friends. I remember the days when my head would hit the pillow and sleep would welcome me immediately into a deep rest. But not so, lately. I get completely out of bed about every hour just to stretch my belly and let everything settle back into place. Rory is also sleeping horribly, and we are in awe of how accurate everyone's words were that this stage is just preparation for the sleepless nights that are to come.
I am nesting in the deepest sense of the word. The past few days I have been digging out every single box we own and going through each item with not a whole lot of sentiment attached. Nothing is safe. It feels good to deep clean like this though, and thanks to my mom and my helpful husband who are carrying my loads away, I think I'll finish the basement before this baby comes.
Still amazes me that this baby could come in two days or in two weeks. I can't think of any bigger life event that is wrapped in so much mystery!
And finally, speaking of mystery, at our last doctor's appointment he asked us if we had any questions. I didn't but I commented on how I still can't get over the miracle that is happening inside of me, and how hands-off this whole process of creating a life has been. He said, "Not to get all spiritual on you or anything..." And Rory interjected, "Oh, please do." And then he did. He told us miracle after miracle of the timing of birth. How right now there is a shunt blocking the blood from flowing to my baby's lungs because it's not necessary yet. But moments after my baby is born, that shunt will close up, flow through the vein and in an instant there will be blood pumping to baby's lungs. He smiled and said, "Now you go find a group of engineers who can duplicate that."
He went on and on. The three of us were just excitedly chatting about this miracle of life and it felt so right to celebrate like that with our doctor. It was cool to see him still get so excited about something he has been practicing for decades now. The thing is, the wonder and mystery of life just never gets old. It is pure gift and by far the greatest gift we have ever been given.
7 comments:
Thinking of you in these days of anticipation :-) Who is your doctor, by the way, sounds amazing!
Baby G is gonna be a girl. Calling it now!
This is getting so exciting!!!
I remember my midwife telling me that when a mother is going through something stressful or some big event the baby will usually come at the perfect time when all is settled. I was so amazed by the truth of her words as Rohan was born only a few hours after Jeremiah got back from Africa. And although it didn't exactly seem perfect at the time, since we were 3 1/2 hours from home in Kentucky and I had to have a doctor I never met before, it really was perfect to have both our families there. Praise God for His perfect timing and the beautiful miracle of birth!
Rachel, our doctor switches for each appointment, but this guy was an absolute favorite...I hope he's around when we deliver...
Alyssa, the way I see it, we've got a 50-50 chance :)
Sarah, you got me thinking. Rory and I just had an interesting conversation about this and I may write on it in the future...God's timing is perfect, that I am sure.
the very first time I slept after having Judah was the best sleep ever...who cared that it was a short sleep...at least I was comfortable. and that is priceless.
you look so stinkin' adorable btway...amazing. It is getting so close! enjoy this last bit as much as is humanly possible and before you know it the big day will be here...oh joy! your heart is about to double in size. you will feel it the second you hold your baby in your arms. the best feeling ever.
Ooh. I get so excited for you! And look at you, all baby! Your doctor sounded amazing--God is SO cool how He crafts it just perfect. Blessings on your, Rory, and baby G!
Hi Becca,
Thinking of you in these days...since we went through this not long ago, your words ring so familiar and true. I had a list of a bunch of meals I wanted to prepare before we gave birth and three days before Esme was born I finished the list and thought to myself, "Well, I'm ready now."
I don't think I could have ever been ready for what happened next (we can swap stories AFTER your beautiful baby is born), but nesting wise I had done what I had wanted to do. :)
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